Blessed are we who can laugh at ourselves for we shall never cease to be amused.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Since it seems all the other wayword souls are once again finding their way home... perhaps I shall wipe the dust from my honourary falice and rejoin the flock for a bit to post. Ommmm... I hope I'm not letting any kind of cat out of the bag, and if I am, Mikey, feel free to let me know and I'll delete this post b/f anyone else has a chance to read it... I heard through the pear vine that Mr Nathan Rose will soon once again be joining the civilian ranks due to, how shall I phrase it, 'health problems.' All these months I have truly intended to write Nate and send him some photos to make his journey a little softer, and now I hear that he's coming home. As odd as it may seem to some who know of my and Nathan's volatile relatinship, I'm actually looking forward to having him around again. But at the same time, I wish that he wasn't coming home. He was so syked about being in the army... and so SO syked about having the opportunities to use his chosen career path as a witnessing vessel... But apparently God has other plans. And so... if forsooth this rumour is true... Welcome Home Nate.
Blessed are we who can laugh at ourselves for we shall never cease to be amused.
Blessed are we who can laugh at ourselves for we shall never cease to be amused.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
yeah, so i miss nate...
i had a dream the other night in sanford (not sure why the place is important) that i was driving down my crown vic down one of the halls in nate's house and he drove by me in a golf cart (cause he had no other vehicle since i am currently purchasing his and all...). i stopped and was like "nate! you're back homie!" and he was all like "yeah!" -- cept not in his well remembered nate voice, but his new power metal "army of one" voice. so we hugged, cause i know he needed some love after being around all those OTHER dudes for so long. then i just kinda woke up and felt really good...
i randomly found some of nate's song lyrics posted on angelic moshpits.com and found some that i really like, and, frankly i am amazed came from nate's head. but then, when i think about how nate and my relationship began to change right before he left, it doesn't seem so unbelievable. but anyways, the words that caught my eye were ones that reminded me of my current situation (and a situation i have found myself in a time or two before) -- having the opportunity to share that first kiss with someone you really care about, but, for all the right reasons, not choosing to take that opportunity because what we figure in the moment isn't always what SHOULD transpire, be it ever, or just not right then, or whatever...
"given the chance a true woman will always understand
what a first kiss means to her and to a true man
how patience would yield better things than mis-timed delivery
of every emotion willing to work from the mentality"
- Nate Rose "Voices"
i am very impressed that even at his distance he can challenge me to be a real man, and be patient for the things in my life that will eventually mean the most to me... thanks nerdario
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
i had a dream the other night in sanford (not sure why the place is important) that i was driving down my crown vic down one of the halls in nate's house and he drove by me in a golf cart (cause he had no other vehicle since i am currently purchasing his and all...). i stopped and was like "nate! you're back homie!" and he was all like "yeah!" -- cept not in his well remembered nate voice, but his new power metal "army of one" voice. so we hugged, cause i know he needed some love after being around all those OTHER dudes for so long. then i just kinda woke up and felt really good...
i randomly found some of nate's song lyrics posted on angelic moshpits.com and found some that i really like, and, frankly i am amazed came from nate's head. but then, when i think about how nate and my relationship began to change right before he left, it doesn't seem so unbelievable. but anyways, the words that caught my eye were ones that reminded me of my current situation (and a situation i have found myself in a time or two before) -- having the opportunity to share that first kiss with someone you really care about, but, for all the right reasons, not choosing to take that opportunity because what we figure in the moment isn't always what SHOULD transpire, be it ever, or just not right then, or whatever...
"given the chance a true woman will always understand
what a first kiss means to her and to a true man
how patience would yield better things than mis-timed delivery
of every emotion willing to work from the mentality"
- Nate Rose "Voices"
i am very impressed that even at his distance he can challenge me to be a real man, and be patient for the things in my life that will eventually mean the most to me... thanks nerdario
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Saturday, March 27, 2004
couple things...
i would like to point out my insane use of elipses... i don't know where i picked this up, but somewhere down the road of my instant messaging, i just thought it more dramatic/emphatic/cool to end thoughts with that "unsaid continuance"... like it's just a pause of me talking and you are hangin on every word. atleast in my mind that is how it is...
also, 24/7 prayer has been going on this week -- which immediately makes this week awesome. this week has seemed to nearly drag on forever, though i have been thoroughly busy for the entirety of it. personally, i have been challenged in a lot of ways to flee from distraction and run to God, in prayer, through worship, and through praise. i know it's cliche, but He meets you there if you ask Him. lots of times we are trapped in positions where we are afraid to speak with God and ask Him for things, or to a lesser extent we settle with only thinking about what we wish from God. i know sometimes i am too scared to honestly open my mouth and ask God for what my heart desires -- but He is so much more pleased when i leave all inhibitions behind and make it verbal -- regardless of who can hear me... it makes it more real when you can't hold it in anymore.
as for mark posting... somehow he gave us a double duece of that post and i tried to go back and edit it so that only one was published but it didn't work. so, i am content thinking that everyone has to read something from mark twice - because he is a cool guy and deserves your attention. love to the drummer - and love to the computer nerd who i wish would grace this page with his linux jokes...
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
i would like to point out my insane use of elipses... i don't know where i picked this up, but somewhere down the road of my instant messaging, i just thought it more dramatic/emphatic/cool to end thoughts with that "unsaid continuance"... like it's just a pause of me talking and you are hangin on every word. atleast in my mind that is how it is...
also, 24/7 prayer has been going on this week -- which immediately makes this week awesome. this week has seemed to nearly drag on forever, though i have been thoroughly busy for the entirety of it. personally, i have been challenged in a lot of ways to flee from distraction and run to God, in prayer, through worship, and through praise. i know it's cliche, but He meets you there if you ask Him. lots of times we are trapped in positions where we are afraid to speak with God and ask Him for things, or to a lesser extent we settle with only thinking about what we wish from God. i know sometimes i am too scared to honestly open my mouth and ask God for what my heart desires -- but He is so much more pleased when i leave all inhibitions behind and make it verbal -- regardless of who can hear me... it makes it more real when you can't hold it in anymore.
as for mark posting... somehow he gave us a double duece of that post and i tried to go back and edit it so that only one was published but it didn't work. so, i am content thinking that everyone has to read something from mark twice - because he is a cool guy and deserves your attention. love to the drummer - and love to the computer nerd who i wish would grace this page with his linux jokes...
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
i'll be honest...
i hate having to write nate letters sometimes... not because of the task of typing what enevitably comes out as 9 pages of dribble, but the fact that it seems always to not seem relevant by the time i go to mail it. especially with events like this past week or two where everyday completely turned updates into old news! everytime i sat down to add a page to keepin' nate informed, it was not even relevant by the time i wanted to send it. i don't know how to let someone know what is up when i can't even see what God has in store for the wacky world of greensboro. so, i must give in and do my best, knowing that he will eventually get word of the goings on 'round these parts... so that is my frustration of the moment - and surprisingly, the only frustration i can think of :-)
"i feel i am standing on the edge of something so beautiful and exciting i cannot fully comprehend it..."
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
i hate having to write nate letters sometimes... not because of the task of typing what enevitably comes out as 9 pages of dribble, but the fact that it seems always to not seem relevant by the time i go to mail it. especially with events like this past week or two where everyday completely turned updates into old news! everytime i sat down to add a page to keepin' nate informed, it was not even relevant by the time i wanted to send it. i don't know how to let someone know what is up when i can't even see what God has in store for the wacky world of greensboro. so, i must give in and do my best, knowing that he will eventually get word of the goings on 'round these parts... so that is my frustration of the moment - and surprisingly, the only frustration i can think of :-)
"i feel i am standing on the edge of something so beautiful and exciting i cannot fully comprehend it..."
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Saturday, March 20, 2004
hot stuff.
my latest news, i have new matches at campusflirts.com
and nothing else of consequence in my mailbox, except a short e-mail from Kia, and one from Simone. I'm glad my Euro-friends don't hate on my inconsequential military training.
speaking of inconsequential....
to make a long story short...
I am on pass again.
Is Bravo 2/58 the most spoiled training company at Fort Benning?
yes, cause we're on pass till tomorrow at 1900.
But then again so are 3 other companies from various battalions.
And, yes, we're all staying out of trouble for the most part.
My latest news...Mikey knows...for now...if you haven't been told by me, ask him what he will be willing to tell you.
Um, nothing else to say except
We are Bravo Company!
And we like to party!
Party hardy!
Party hardy all night long!
Yo left, yo left, yo left right get on down
Yo left, yo left, yo left right get on down
And other such nonsense silly cadence.
I'm embarassing. More posts later! No more caffeine!
my latest news, i have new matches at campusflirts.com
and nothing else of consequence in my mailbox, except a short e-mail from Kia, and one from Simone. I'm glad my Euro-friends don't hate on my inconsequential military training.
speaking of inconsequential....
to make a long story short...
I am on pass again.
Is Bravo 2/58 the most spoiled training company at Fort Benning?
yes, cause we're on pass till tomorrow at 1900.
But then again so are 3 other companies from various battalions.
And, yes, we're all staying out of trouble for the most part.
My latest news...Mikey knows...for now...if you haven't been told by me, ask him what he will be willing to tell you.
Um, nothing else to say except
We are Bravo Company!
And we like to party!
Party hardy!
Party hardy all night long!
Yo left, yo left, yo left right get on down
Yo left, yo left, yo left right get on down
And other such nonsense silly cadence.
I'm embarassing. More posts later! No more caffeine!
so much, so much, so much...
sometimes you know more than you can say in a public setting, such as the often visited, never duplicated by anyone of smarts, brotherhood page, but i say what peace i have. i wish things were easy, and i wish the things that i can see for my future that will make me very very happy, could start today, and didn't need to be put off so long. but that is selfish and me wanting things that i am not ready to handle. sometimes there is always a reason why we must wait... you know Jacob waited 14 years for Rachel and it didn't bother him none! patience for the things God wants for us is something awesome...
"So Jacob served seven years for Rachel, and they seemed only a few days to him because of the love he had for her." Genesis 29:20
God knows what's up, and i thank Him for that... also, brooks knows what is up, and for the ladies, i am leading by example by slowling down the battlefield consumption. remember, life if more important than video games... well, except on match night :-)
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
sometimes you know more than you can say in a public setting, such as the often visited, never duplicated by anyone of smarts, brotherhood page, but i say what peace i have. i wish things were easy, and i wish the things that i can see for my future that will make me very very happy, could start today, and didn't need to be put off so long. but that is selfish and me wanting things that i am not ready to handle. sometimes there is always a reason why we must wait... you know Jacob waited 14 years for Rachel and it didn't bother him none! patience for the things God wants for us is something awesome...
"So Jacob served seven years for Rachel, and they seemed only a few days to him because of the love he had for her." Genesis 29:20
God knows what's up, and i thank Him for that... also, brooks knows what is up, and for the ladies, i am leading by example by slowling down the battlefield consumption. remember, life if more important than video games... well, except on match night :-)
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Thursday, March 11, 2004
speaking of video games...
my co-workers aren't quite as into battlefield as i am. not because they don't like it, but because they have been playing halo for so long. you know, halo, the poor man's first person shooter game. well, i go over to dave's on occasion to partake in some halo action but never really get into it, but for the sake of building bonds with my co-workers outside staples land, i do this. and heck, they are cool guys... well, halo for PC has been out for awhile, but i know i didn't need YET ANOTHER distraction, especially from computer land - so i did not spend the $50 on it. as of late the trend has been to play halo and the guys have been pestering me to get it and finally yesterday (wed) i told them that if i could randomly get the money to buy it, i would...
fast forward to lunch at blimpie where joe (the owner) asks if i know anyone who will make a delivery for him later in the day, and he'd pay em' $20. so i was like, sure thing new boss. so i took some sandhwiches out to this middle school in north boro' and then the lady added a $10 tip into the cost. so i made $30 for an hour of work. then when i get back, mark is still hounding me about buying halo and says best buy has it for $39.99. well... if that is not a sign from God Himself, then i don't know what is... so, i now own a game that i don't really like a ton, but ya know... i think it will help me spend more time, however unquality, with the guys from work. justification...? i think so...
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
my co-workers aren't quite as into battlefield as i am. not because they don't like it, but because they have been playing halo for so long. you know, halo, the poor man's first person shooter game. well, i go over to dave's on occasion to partake in some halo action but never really get into it, but for the sake of building bonds with my co-workers outside staples land, i do this. and heck, they are cool guys... well, halo for PC has been out for awhile, but i know i didn't need YET ANOTHER distraction, especially from computer land - so i did not spend the $50 on it. as of late the trend has been to play halo and the guys have been pestering me to get it and finally yesterday (wed) i told them that if i could randomly get the money to buy it, i would...
fast forward to lunch at blimpie where joe (the owner) asks if i know anyone who will make a delivery for him later in the day, and he'd pay em' $20. so i was like, sure thing new boss. so i took some sandhwiches out to this middle school in north boro' and then the lady added a $10 tip into the cost. so i made $30 for an hour of work. then when i get back, mark is still hounding me about buying halo and says best buy has it for $39.99. well... if that is not a sign from God Himself, then i don't know what is... so, i now own a game that i don't really like a ton, but ya know... i think it will help me spend more time, however unquality, with the guys from work. justification...? i think so...
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
did i mention that my (and john's) battlefield "clan" (with a 'c', not a 'k' mind you...) has finally attained it's goal of being #1 on the CTF (capture the flag) ladder on teamwarfare.com...? well, we have (like you care!)... it's kinda boring though because we were having a match or two every week and now we haven't played a round of capture the flag for nearly two weeks. now given, i am cool with this partially, as i wanted to get off this computer more anyways. unfortunately, this plan is futile considering it's spring break and there aren't many people around. BUT, never to fear -- once school gets back in i am sure there is someone who can continue to "monopolize all of my time" and i won't say a thing at all... i won't say a word at all...
in other news, stemo is back from his camping trip and we shall be talking and laughing like two little girls soon! how exciting... we will also be discussing our upcoming trip to chapel hill to see less than jake and the early november at cat's cradle in april. it seems fortune smiles on the would be punk rokk/ska/emo kid next month - ha! ha!
what the duece...?!
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
in other news, stemo is back from his camping trip and we shall be talking and laughing like two little girls soon! how exciting... we will also be discussing our upcoming trip to chapel hill to see less than jake and the early november at cat's cradle in april. it seems fortune smiles on the would be punk rokk/ska/emo kid next month - ha! ha!
what the duece...?!
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Sunday, March 07, 2004
aye aye sir...
how can i turn down a request from that cute little cackling face... and don't worry - there will be some brotherhood unification on family day. i mean, though we're not italian -- we're family. like at the olive garden.
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
how can i turn down a request from that cute little cackling face... and don't worry - there will be some brotherhood unification on family day. i mean, though we're not italian -- we're family. like at the olive garden.
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
Okay,
So the fact that The Brotherhood has now become the Nate Show is both bogus and sad. You mean to tell me that in the 3 weeks I have not been on pass that only a single, short (yet still witty) post by John has been all to grace the pages of the Bro'hoodwy?
You guys need some serious layin'itonthick.
So I'll tell you what's been going down in B 2/58 town.
We just had a pretty rockin' week. Camped out pretty much the whole week, except we had to go get our Class A uniforms from Reception Battalion. Yeah, Class As, the supposedly snazzy lookin ones with the funny caps and plastic shoes. I prefer to call them Class Gays.
Anyway,
like I said. Pretty much did bivouac all week. And we were doing MOUT training, which stands for Mission Operations in Urban Terrain or something like that. But really all it is is they teach you how to carry your weapon when you're turning corners and entering rooms and stuff. Basically telling you all this technical stuff that sets you up for failure, because you'll have to unlearn it all before you go and do the actual urban assault training, or whatever, when you get to your actual unit.
And this week we will be learning MUDF...which is Movement Under Direct Fire. I wish I knew what the heck it meant beyond the obvious, but since last week was pretty cool, for the fact that we got to wear cool laser tag-ish equipment and run around and throw fake grenades and fire blanks with our M-16s, I'm expecting leisurely entertainment from this next block.
Surely I'm taking it seriously...but I'm in a caffeine buzzy mood right now, which is probably exceptionally more entertaining than the mood I'm usually in when I write my letters home...that 9PM, "just got done with 16 hours of training" kind of funk.
So DS Paul says we really have 3 weeks of training left, and then we have our FTX, and then we actually don't do much of anything on our last week except clean all our equipment up really well, turn it in, and clean the bays really well, and then just wait for our graduation. All 15 minutes of it.
Family day is the day before graduation, and that's the day that I can really hang out with people. So for folks that are wondering if they can come down for the ceremonies, hey, the more the merrier, I will be dividing my attention between family and friends and so...you know, we'll figure it out.
Anyway, training has been amusing, because the drill sergeants were in a really good mood the last half of this week, and DS Saldana from 2nd Platoon, DS Paul from 1st, and Sergeant Croak, our roughneck DS-in-training were all getting a kick out of 3rd platoon's drill sergeant impressions on Friday afternoon. Then the First Sergeant was wiling out during a tabasco sauce drinking contest. It's like we passed into a parallel dimension where the totem rules of Army reality don't apply. Or maybe it was just a little bit of well deserved fun.
So the fact that The Brotherhood has now become the Nate Show is both bogus and sad. You mean to tell me that in the 3 weeks I have not been on pass that only a single, short (yet still witty) post by John has been all to grace the pages of the Bro'hoodwy?
You guys need some serious layin'itonthick.
So I'll tell you what's been going down in B 2/58 town.
We just had a pretty rockin' week. Camped out pretty much the whole week, except we had to go get our Class A uniforms from Reception Battalion. Yeah, Class As, the supposedly snazzy lookin ones with the funny caps and plastic shoes. I prefer to call them Class Gays.
Anyway,
like I said. Pretty much did bivouac all week. And we were doing MOUT training, which stands for Mission Operations in Urban Terrain or something like that. But really all it is is they teach you how to carry your weapon when you're turning corners and entering rooms and stuff. Basically telling you all this technical stuff that sets you up for failure, because you'll have to unlearn it all before you go and do the actual urban assault training, or whatever, when you get to your actual unit.
And this week we will be learning MUDF...which is Movement Under Direct Fire. I wish I knew what the heck it meant beyond the obvious, but since last week was pretty cool, for the fact that we got to wear cool laser tag-ish equipment and run around and throw fake grenades and fire blanks with our M-16s, I'm expecting leisurely entertainment from this next block.
Surely I'm taking it seriously...but I'm in a caffeine buzzy mood right now, which is probably exceptionally more entertaining than the mood I'm usually in when I write my letters home...that 9PM, "just got done with 16 hours of training" kind of funk.
So DS Paul says we really have 3 weeks of training left, and then we have our FTX, and then we actually don't do much of anything on our last week except clean all our equipment up really well, turn it in, and clean the bays really well, and then just wait for our graduation. All 15 minutes of it.
Family day is the day before graduation, and that's the day that I can really hang out with people. So for folks that are wondering if they can come down for the ceremonies, hey, the more the merrier, I will be dividing my attention between family and friends and so...you know, we'll figure it out.
Anyway, training has been amusing, because the drill sergeants were in a really good mood the last half of this week, and DS Saldana from 2nd Platoon, DS Paul from 1st, and Sergeant Croak, our roughneck DS-in-training were all getting a kick out of 3rd platoon's drill sergeant impressions on Friday afternoon. Then the First Sergeant was wiling out during a tabasco sauce drinking contest. It's like we passed into a parallel dimension where the totem rules of Army reality don't apply. Or maybe it was just a little bit of well deserved fun.
