yeah, so i miss nate...

i had a dream the other night in sanford (not sure why the place is important) that i was driving down my crown vic down one of the halls in nate's house and he drove by me in a golf cart (cause he had no other vehicle since i am currently purchasing his and all...). i stopped and was like "nate! you're back homie!" and he was all like "yeah!" -- cept not in his well remembered nate voice, but his new power metal "army of one" voice. so we hugged, cause i know he needed some love after being around all those OTHER dudes for so long. then i just kinda woke up and felt really good...

i randomly found some of nate's song lyrics posted on angelic moshpits.com and found some that i really like, and, frankly i am amazed came from nate's head. but then, when i think about how nate and my relationship began to change right before he left, it doesn't seem so unbelievable. but anyways, the words that caught my eye were ones that reminded me of my current situation (and a situation i have found myself in a time or two before) -- having the opportunity to share that first kiss with someone you really care about, but, for all the right reasons, not choosing to take that opportunity because what we figure in the moment isn't always what SHOULD transpire, be it ever, or just not right then, or whatever...

"given the chance a true woman will always understand
what a first kiss means to her and to a true man
how patience would yield better things than mis-timed delivery
of every emotion willing to work from the mentality"
- Nate Rose "Voices"

i am very impressed that even at his distance he can challenge me to be a real man, and be patient for the things in my life that will eventually mean the most to me... thanks nerdario

as always, keepin it real... REAL real...