Flashbacks
A quote from a post I made July 7, 2003:
Well, nearly a year later, I would like to think I am a much different man. It's sad to say that a year ago, this was probably the most positive post I made over a course of many months.
Now I'm happy to say that despite the technical proclivities that led to my premature return home from the Army, I do like the idea of working an internship, at least now, because I've got one where I'm actually learning something, and feel like I'm getting paid more than I'm worth. Which is weird.
I have to admit, reading back over my posts from about December 2002 and as far along as July 2003, I realize that should I go on reading up to the time I left for basic, I might find that virtually all of my contribution to this website has been sarcastic, lambastic, and spiteful, not to mention haught with arrogance.
Much of this has been maliciously directed toward Mikey, which was hardly ever justified.
"Given time a true [man] will always understand" that untrue women have a way of clouding their vision. So maybe I should just put that in a song instead.
Without this being a spiteful post in itself, let us rest on the well-proven fact that Mikey, for all his occasional misgivings, has oft been right, particularly about the most crucial of life's decisions. It is why, when I have faced times that have sucked, he has been there for me to lend support and wisdom.
I managed to make a lot of mistakes in my past, particularly around a year ago, but I feel that I have almost been given a chance to travel back in time, seeing as how, precisely a year after my rapid decline, I returned to Greensboro, and henceforth have been making (most of) the right decisions related to my post-college venture that I should have been making a year ago.
And it's from the comfort of the Lord and aid of friends that I have been able to prayerfully consider my destiny, as it were, and choose things by the right priority.
SO, in conclusion,
For the fact that I looked and saw the old me, and realized I've probably hated myself for most of my life and didn't even realize it...I hope that this epiphany actually proves that I am either a different person now or on my quick way to becoming so.
I could probably get specific and write pages of apologies, pages of regrets, but I'd rather think that God will tack on an extra year to my life and use my last seemingly wasted year as a testament and marker to my failures, weaknesses and grievous errors.
You know, so I'll like, maybe make some right decisions now and stuff.
"in other news, each and every day the reality sets on me that i'm going to serve my country in a real and crucial way. it's really exciting and so much more cool to think about than anything i thought i might have been doing around this time. sorry, but another "internship" filing papers isn't gonna motivate me. instead of answering phones i'll be firing guns, throwing grenades, crawling under barbed wire, and it'll BE REAL!
guys...life is good. REAL good. "
Well, nearly a year later, I would like to think I am a much different man. It's sad to say that a year ago, this was probably the most positive post I made over a course of many months.
Now I'm happy to say that despite the technical proclivities that led to my premature return home from the Army, I do like the idea of working an internship, at least now, because I've got one where I'm actually learning something, and feel like I'm getting paid more than I'm worth. Which is weird.
I have to admit, reading back over my posts from about December 2002 and as far along as July 2003, I realize that should I go on reading up to the time I left for basic, I might find that virtually all of my contribution to this website has been sarcastic, lambastic, and spiteful, not to mention haught with arrogance.
Much of this has been maliciously directed toward Mikey, which was hardly ever justified.
"Given time a true [man] will always understand" that untrue women have a way of clouding their vision. So maybe I should just put that in a song instead.
Without this being a spiteful post in itself, let us rest on the well-proven fact that Mikey, for all his occasional misgivings, has oft been right, particularly about the most crucial of life's decisions. It is why, when I have faced times that have sucked, he has been there for me to lend support and wisdom.
I managed to make a lot of mistakes in my past, particularly around a year ago, but I feel that I have almost been given a chance to travel back in time, seeing as how, precisely a year after my rapid decline, I returned to Greensboro, and henceforth have been making (most of) the right decisions related to my post-college venture that I should have been making a year ago.
And it's from the comfort of the Lord and aid of friends that I have been able to prayerfully consider my destiny, as it were, and choose things by the right priority.
SO, in conclusion,
For the fact that I looked and saw the old me, and realized I've probably hated myself for most of my life and didn't even realize it...I hope that this epiphany actually proves that I am either a different person now or on my quick way to becoming so.
I could probably get specific and write pages of apologies, pages of regrets, but I'd rather think that God will tack on an extra year to my life and use my last seemingly wasted year as a testament and marker to my failures, weaknesses and grievous errors.
You know, so I'll like, maybe make some right decisions now and stuff.
Nathan Prime 12:38
1 Comments:
Let me take back part of what I said...
I continued to read, because hey, I don't do much at work, and virtually every single November 2003 post was witty and worthwhile, including my own.
You know, I say this so as to not discredit myself where the occasional credit's due.
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