i have been biding my time to write something very funny or intelligent, but alas... i have not been inspired. so, i go with what i feel like writing about now that the holiday season is upon us - being with the ones you love, family, friends, etc... i don't often talk about real personal stuff to anyone cause for one, no one usually asks me; i guess when i get around people they assume i have it together cause i am usually so calm and collected, and in my opinion, pretty darn rational. the other reason is i just don't like feeling like being the guy who feels the need to share every little thing about his life since usually the things i keep deep down are things i feel no one can really do anything about anyways. but i have started learning the lesson of how to value a friend who wants to know about me - the whole me. where is this going...? no where in particular, i just wanted to make a round about point...


the holidays... the most wonderful time of the year, right? well, for most people. for me it is blotted with reminders of the fact that i don't have much back home. now, my mom is there, and i LOVE my mom, no doubt - but she has a full time job and hardly the time for good QT (quality time) when she is exausted. so i turn to my friends from back home... wait - that's the thing, i only have like 3 or 4 people from back home that i still consider my friends. among them, we have more full time jobs and general business. do you still not know where i am going with this? well, i will try to bring it all together. when the breaks from school come, i stay here, in greensboro for a majority of my time (only going home when i know my mom will be off work, or the weekends of the break). this is for the simple fact that when everyone goes home for the holidays to see people, in a way, i do too. except i don't have to go far... all the people i consider my friends, my brothers, my sisters, my loved ones, my family... are here, in greensboro. from my best friends, to the rest of the brotherhood, to people i see once a week, to others that just come hang out at our apartment; all these people, you (chances are if you're reading this) are the folks who mean the most to me. on a daily basis it's like christmas to me because i get to be with all the people i care about most. i don't have to wait for some break at the end of the semester, cause i am lucky enough to see most of you nearly daily...


now, i do not want this to be depressing like "mikey is famliless and in greensboro", cause frankly, i doubt any of you are pitying me anyways. it's just my way of saying that sometimes i don't understand why people wanna go home so bad, when in reality, i am just jealous of them having a lot to go home to. i am just thankful for everyone who puts up with my crap and lets me be me... most of the time. so if you can read this - then you should know you have probably made my life better a hundred times over, even in the crappy times. to end i shall remind anyone who didn't go home, that i will be here a good portion of break, and to everyone else - even though i miss you, yes YOU! i hope you are having an awesome time with the people who love you and have had to be missing you for most of a semester (or longer in some cases). so rokk it out hard core and you have a big dose of realiness waiting for you when you get back... love...