Personal revelations?
I saw Blindside last night.I also had a number of exciting little revelations last night too. SO I want to bring you guys up to speed, because I feel, up until now, I may have beena bit misleading to anyone I talked to regarding my 'summer' and all my experiences post-April.
I have been blessed with an awesome job. Sure, I'd love to be playing music for a living. But if I can't do that, would I love to work for an awesome Water Resources Dept doing what I (academically)do best? Sure. And if I can say this, I do not work for 'the man'. Common misunderstanding...I'm not toiling day in and day out to try to sell people things they don't need, all for the profit of some president or shareholder that I do not know. I'm thankful to God that He's provided me with an awesome job that fits my talent for mapmaking into a situation where I can be onboard with the most vital of municipal services. Second to God, and first in the realm of survival needs, is water. And I am part of the team that provides a clean and abundant water supply to the sometimes unthankful, but nevertheless awesome people of Greensboro. I'm so glad that right now God has me in a place where I am learning skills and making friends, day in and day out, and don't have to work 2 jobs to make a living.
I know people that still do and I mean no disrespect to any hardworking person. I believe that everyone needs to 'do time' in retail or sales or fast food or receptionry as I did. It's not enjoyable but it is a valuable, irreplacable lesson in itself. And since we can't all be lawyers and leech off the industrious effort and hard work of others, and since we can't all be travelling musicians, playing our nomadic anthems to the ears of eager listeners, and since we all can't be presidents of multi-million dollar corporations, puppeteering our vast empires of wealth and capital and meanwhile feeling all the pressure in the world to keep our way of exorbidant life, and since we all can't be Hollywood stars, taking our personal humor or drama to the cinematic table, we just have to simply be. But we cannot give up on the dreams we have or the plan God has for us...especially when those things are in concordance.So, I have my job and take it for what it is: a blessing that is preparing me for things which may or may not come down the line...a wife, children (what I want more than anything else in the world), a housein Montana, and miles of open country to walk till I'm white-haired and wheel-chaired. Let me take my job for what it is and say it is, at the very least, a mode by which I can grow and learn! How exciting to have that opportunity. I should feel so blessed. And I do.
Like Bradley Hathaway, I too am a manly man. I was even more rejuvenated and renewed in my sense of purpose by the speakings of this spindly slam poet than I was by the hardcore anthems of my favorite Swedish band. Bradley Hathaway reminds me of some of the art that came out of the Raleigh scene, long since passed...but more importantly...It's good to be reminded that you're a man. That you have fears, and insecurities, that you have strengths and passions, that you have things that are framed as good and noble intentions, and then you have your dirty secrets. I am all of these things. When you get down to it, being a man is scary. There are too many crazy experiences, things that can break you and forever scar. Few know my own story and I doubt they'd want to hear it. No one knows the whole saga but me and God. And everyone's like this...
I'm celebrating my 'manliness' now. Cause I really don't know where I'm going to be, but I know that the Lord is sovereign and good and that His plan for me, it's gotta be the best of plans, complete with trials and adversities to be challenged with and overcome. I'm not backing down if I've backed down before, and I'm never going to say never for what lies in store for me. I got reminded that right now, age 23...I am young! I've got my whole life ahead of me. It's going to be awesome to see where the wind blows. Because these railroads and the sun overhead, and the hard rains, and the dusty plains, and the open road...Those aren't just things I sing about, honey. Those are dreams I was meant to live.
It's all good...
I have been blessed with an awesome job. Sure, I'd love to be playing music for a living. But if I can't do that, would I love to work for an awesome Water Resources Dept doing what I (academically)do best? Sure. And if I can say this, I do not work for 'the man'. Common misunderstanding...I'm not toiling day in and day out to try to sell people things they don't need, all for the profit of some president or shareholder that I do not know. I'm thankful to God that He's provided me with an awesome job that fits my talent for mapmaking into a situation where I can be onboard with the most vital of municipal services. Second to God, and first in the realm of survival needs, is water. And I am part of the team that provides a clean and abundant water supply to the sometimes unthankful, but nevertheless awesome people of Greensboro. I'm so glad that right now God has me in a place where I am learning skills and making friends, day in and day out, and don't have to work 2 jobs to make a living.
I know people that still do and I mean no disrespect to any hardworking person. I believe that everyone needs to 'do time' in retail or sales or fast food or receptionry as I did. It's not enjoyable but it is a valuable, irreplacable lesson in itself. And since we can't all be lawyers and leech off the industrious effort and hard work of others, and since we can't all be travelling musicians, playing our nomadic anthems to the ears of eager listeners, and since we all can't be presidents of multi-million dollar corporations, puppeteering our vast empires of wealth and capital and meanwhile feeling all the pressure in the world to keep our way of exorbidant life, and since we all can't be Hollywood stars, taking our personal humor or drama to the cinematic table, we just have to simply be. But we cannot give up on the dreams we have or the plan God has for us...especially when those things are in concordance.So, I have my job and take it for what it is: a blessing that is preparing me for things which may or may not come down the line...a wife, children (what I want more than anything else in the world), a housein Montana, and miles of open country to walk till I'm white-haired and wheel-chaired. Let me take my job for what it is and say it is, at the very least, a mode by which I can grow and learn! How exciting to have that opportunity. I should feel so blessed. And I do.
Like Bradley Hathaway, I too am a manly man. I was even more rejuvenated and renewed in my sense of purpose by the speakings of this spindly slam poet than I was by the hardcore anthems of my favorite Swedish band. Bradley Hathaway reminds me of some of the art that came out of the Raleigh scene, long since passed...but more importantly...It's good to be reminded that you're a man. That you have fears, and insecurities, that you have strengths and passions, that you have things that are framed as good and noble intentions, and then you have your dirty secrets. I am all of these things. When you get down to it, being a man is scary. There are too many crazy experiences, things that can break you and forever scar. Few know my own story and I doubt they'd want to hear it. No one knows the whole saga but me and God. And everyone's like this...
I'm celebrating my 'manliness' now. Cause I really don't know where I'm going to be, but I know that the Lord is sovereign and good and that His plan for me, it's gotta be the best of plans, complete with trials and adversities to be challenged with and overcome. I'm not backing down if I've backed down before, and I'm never going to say never for what lies in store for me. I got reminded that right now, age 23...I am young! I've got my whole life ahead of me. It's going to be awesome to see where the wind blows. Because these railroads and the sun overhead, and the hard rains, and the dusty plains, and the open road...Those aren't just things I sing about, honey. Those are dreams I was meant to live.
It's all good...
Nathan Prime 09:52
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