a week of loss...
so this week has been tatered by the loss of two people who are very dear to me. the first was planned and i had time to make emotional arrangement. danny wulff left for papua new guinea friday morning and is now somewhere in the pacific i am guessing. os i have lost an accountability partner, a close friend, and someone who i never have to pretend realness around. danny is always cracking jokes and being the first one to tell you what's going down - truly a captain of realness. so i have one less home dogg to chill with and let's be honest -- greensboro lost a real cool guy for the time being. also...
the second loss of the week came as a total shock to myself along with basically everyone i know. i am sure those involved wouldn't have dreamed of persuading him to have told us before hand, but people are who they are, good or bad. for those of you who don't know, our beloved kildoo has abruptly moved out of our apartment without warning or provocation. he has been secretly working on getting a new apartment with some old acquaintances of ours from high school while not letting anyone, myself, or any of his current roomates included, know of his plans. so i wake up friday to see kildoo moving stuff out only to find his solemn and unemotional or apologetic words not comforting the fact that i feel like i am loosing one of my best friends. i kind of felt that he might go and live with these people, but i didn't care, i wasn't going to stop him or feel hurt he didn't want to live with me this coming year -- i just feel hurt he couldn't tell anyone, and furthermore lied about his plans. the lying comeing from when i have asked him over the course of the past couple of weeks as to what he is gonna be doing next year and his only response being "i dunno" -- when clearly his plan was already in effect. what would prompt kildoo to do such a thing? it is definately not the kildoo i have known all my life, and it still makes little sense. should i blame myself for just assuming all this time he had been spending away from the apartment was with his new girlfriend pam? a girl that none of us also know much about. the more i think about it, the more kildoo is a ninja... stealthy and secret-- always wanting people to open up to him but never bothering to let people know what he's up to.
so who knows how often any of us will see kildoo now. between his new apartment and his new girlfriend, what kind of event must we have going on for kildoo to make a special appearance? maybe i am just over worried about a situation. but maybe i am just concerned that someone who so many people care about doesn't realize how much they care...
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
so this week has been tatered by the loss of two people who are very dear to me. the first was planned and i had time to make emotional arrangement. danny wulff left for papua new guinea friday morning and is now somewhere in the pacific i am guessing. os i have lost an accountability partner, a close friend, and someone who i never have to pretend realness around. danny is always cracking jokes and being the first one to tell you what's going down - truly a captain of realness. so i have one less home dogg to chill with and let's be honest -- greensboro lost a real cool guy for the time being. also...
the second loss of the week came as a total shock to myself along with basically everyone i know. i am sure those involved wouldn't have dreamed of persuading him to have told us before hand, but people are who they are, good or bad. for those of you who don't know, our beloved kildoo has abruptly moved out of our apartment without warning or provocation. he has been secretly working on getting a new apartment with some old acquaintances of ours from high school while not letting anyone, myself, or any of his current roomates included, know of his plans. so i wake up friday to see kildoo moving stuff out only to find his solemn and unemotional or apologetic words not comforting the fact that i feel like i am loosing one of my best friends. i kind of felt that he might go and live with these people, but i didn't care, i wasn't going to stop him or feel hurt he didn't want to live with me this coming year -- i just feel hurt he couldn't tell anyone, and furthermore lied about his plans. the lying comeing from when i have asked him over the course of the past couple of weeks as to what he is gonna be doing next year and his only response being "i dunno" -- when clearly his plan was already in effect. what would prompt kildoo to do such a thing? it is definately not the kildoo i have known all my life, and it still makes little sense. should i blame myself for just assuming all this time he had been spending away from the apartment was with his new girlfriend pam? a girl that none of us also know much about. the more i think about it, the more kildoo is a ninja... stealthy and secret-- always wanting people to open up to him but never bothering to let people know what he's up to.
so who knows how often any of us will see kildoo now. between his new apartment and his new girlfriend, what kind of event must we have going on for kildoo to make a special appearance? maybe i am just over worried about a situation. but maybe i am just concerned that someone who so many people care about doesn't realize how much they care...
as always, keepin it real... REAL real...
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